I’m not sure when it began but I have had a tendency to give up quickly when I’m not good at something. As I connect to feelings and recall experiences, I identified a few feelings and I dug deeper and deeper to find the most core.
I have been too embarrassed by being bad at something
If I have not been good from the start, I would never be good at all
For people to think I am smart, respectable, or worthy I can't let them see my flaws.
I need to be amazing or no one will like me
Recently, I have been addressing beliefs that may be causing some of these behaviors and maybe stopping me from reaching my feeling goals:
“I’m not good enough”
“I have no control”
and today was “I am helpless.”
In each of these specific sessions, I created a new, empowering belief and my favorite one came out to play today.
“I can sit in imperfection.”
Some of you may question how this is an empowering belief and for my fellow perfectionists, you can likely feel how powerful this belief could be!
How many projects or dreams have you set aside because you didn’t think you had what it took to do it?
Or procrastinating when you are not meeting your own expectations ad giving up completely when it gets tough?
Why is this all coming up? Because today I picked up my tongue drum.
Something I bought a few years ago with aspirations of sitting in the park, relaxing and playing soothing sounds (I practically smelled the patchouli).
Only that’s not how it went.
Turns out not only am I not coordinated for dancing and sports, but I have also not been coordinated for music stuff either.
I sucked!
So, it sat, looking pretty collecting dust. Until today.
Today, I felt inspired to look on YouTube to find videos to learn to play this beautiful instrument.
And YEP! Of course, there are tons of them!
It was awesome because a few helped me see this is something I will need to practice and that just because I am not good now, doesn’t mean I never will be.
And even if I never am, I have a new appreciation for playing just for the sake of play.
A few times, I found myself in a rhythm. Nothing amazing, but it was a fairly steady rhythm. More times, I found myself out of rhythm and it was okay, it was still fun. And often when I closed my eyes I felt like I was in meditation.
I am confident I owe it to that new belief "I can sit in imperfection" and of the work, I have committed to regarding my feeling goals.
And I share this in case you are like me, a perfectionist, or recovering perfectionist who struggles with trying to feel worthy or good enough.
If you are someone who holds yourself back because you feel you can't afford to fail.
I am sharing this to invite you up to inquire, what can you give yourself permission to be bad at?
What imperfection can you sit in and either be okay with?
And also can you allow yourself to invest in learning something new, or just allow it to be an opportunity to play to reach your feeling goal?
What goals do you have?
Not just the outcome or result you are looking to experience with your goals, but what feeling are you striving to feel more of?
Do you know why that is more important than the goal itself?
I would love to share it with you.
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